One Year anniversary

It is our one year anniversary, almost! We are going away for a long weekend away, it will be lots of fun. I have created a wordle thing for my husband and I. Reflecting back on the first year of marriage and kinda how it has been for us. Its going to be great to get away just the two of us and not have to worry about responsibilities and the mundane things in life!

On another note (was there ever another another note?)

I have been frustrated with life lately, partly because of certain reasons and partly because I sometimes get annoyed very easily by little things. I have no idea why. For example the other day my husband and I came home from working (at the same place), there was lots of washing up to do, tea hadn't been cooked and I was tired. For some reason I got very annoyed and upset because of this. My husband cooked tea and did some of the washing up for me while I sat quietly doing something on the computer and drinking a chamomile tea (which he made me - awwww!). This did help me calm down and feel better. I guess that's just life, things are not always going to be perfect! That's something I need to remember, I tend to be rather perfectionistic and get stressed when it doesn't turn out how I like.

I have been thinking about my favourite movies lately and realised there are quite a few that I like and started sorting them into categories in my mind.

Independent/Foreign/Arthouse:
Paris J'Taime
Amelie
Tideland
I do (French movie - I don't know French name)
Science of Sleep
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
House of Flying Daggers
Hero
Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon
I love Huckabees
Garden State
Little Miss Sunshine
My best friend (French)
The bothersome man (odd, but interesting concept)

Sci-Fi:
The Matrix (first one only)
Momento
Star Wars - all of them
Star Trek (what I have seen, I liked)
Cypher

Action:
Deja Vu (Sci-fi also)
Domino
V for Vendetta
Batman Begins

Other:
The Illusionist
A beautiful mind (not sure what cateogory this is)
Scent of a woman
Saved
Brokeback Mountain
The Four feathers

Adventure:
Lord of the Rings trilogy
Lion, the witch and the wardrobe
Prince Capsian

Australian:
Rabbit Proof fence
Candy (Heath Ledger is in this one - bonus!)
Strange Bedfellows
Priscilla Queen of the Desert (gosh that made me laugh!)

Family/feel good/ inspirational:
I am Sam
Molly
Benny & Joon
Keeping Mum
Freedom Writers
A bear called Winnie (about the real Winnie the Pooh)
School of Life

Johnny Depp movies:
Benny & Joon
Edward Scissor hands
Chocolat
Ed Wood

I am super tired and I can't think of anymore at this stage, will keep adding some as I remember. I have seen soooo many movies that have impacted me and that I have liked that I can't remember them all.

Photo editing

Today I have been photo editing for part of the day. I had lots of fun editing a photo of a friend and I loved the result. Here it is:























Apart from that I have been busy studying and also had a few part time work days which is great for the extra money. I should have been studying instead of editing this pic, but I felt rather creative so ignored the little voice that said "study girl!! study."
Ah the joys of creativity!

Solution to telemarketer problem

From here.



I think I might need to say a bit about this vid. First of all I have had a few telemarketers ring up lately and they really annoy me. I found this video, it is perfect, funny and so true.

Also the whole site where I found this video has some really funny videos about relationships, sex, and other aspects of life.

Thursday; the new Friday

Thursday has now become Friday in my mind. I used to always clean the house on Friday to prepare for Sabbath etc, but now I like to get the cleaning done before Friday so I can relax and enjoy Friday rather than stress and have to do lots of work. Of course it probably has something to do with the fact that my husband has Fridays off and I want to spend time with him doing whatever. Its sort of messed with my mind and weirded me out a bit as I feel strange not cleaning the house on Friday. I was so used to cleaning on Friday, but now Thursday has become the day to clean.

I do like getting the cleaning done early though.
Cleaning is also calming for me. There's nothing like a good clean to chase away frustration, anxiety and fear.

Really excited!!

I used to live in NZ, in fact I lived there for 16 years of my life, so I am familiar with the culture, accent, food, mannerisms etc over there. There is one particular cookie that NZ makes and sells and I cannot buy it over here. I have missed it very much, its the yummiest cookie I have ever had in my life. Its a large cookie, with massive chocolate chips. I have known and eaten it all my life whilst in NZ. However since living in Australia, I have really missed it. Its called 'Cookie Time.' Due to missing this cookie alot and also being reminded of it on someone's facebook, I decided to research about it and see if I could find out about it online and if there was a way of buying it online. Amazingly enough there is and I am very excited about this. I am going to buy 20 or something ridiculous like that because I have missed them so much. They are $2 each (NZD) which works out cheaper so am going to buy lots. Plus my husband will get to eat some, if he's lucky. I might eat them all. The website is called NZedge and it has lots of NZ stuff on there.

Anyway, am super excited about this, going to buy lots to eat and share (maybe).

The cookie time cookie!

Too long since I last wrote

Thoughts

It has been nearly a month since I last wrote something, a lot has been going on and happening in my life. Firstly I made a decision that I was not going to spend my days attached to a computer, I wanted to do stuff, be more active and proactive, be alive. So I started a new routine, instead of lazing and feeling sorry for myself because I was alone all day or whatever. I decided to do something about it. I got up the same time as my husband (6am) so we could spend more time together and be more of a team and not feel so disconnected from each other. That was great. I also wanted to get the housework etc done early so it was done and I didn't have to worry about it. Anyway. I found it made my life so much easier and I felt happier too. It worked wonderfully for 2 weeks and I was doing it all so well. I have also been exercising for an hour everyday, 6 days a week and feel fantastic. Now I am at the stage where I am struggling to keep the routine going, but I have been pushing myself to keep at it. I have realised that I give up way too easily and then get mad at myself for giving up, but then don't try again. Realising this I vowed to not let it happen again, I must keep at it.
So anyway that is why I have not written anything, I have been busy and happy with my life, till now. Isn't it funny that life can seem so wonderful for a bit and then it goes downhill...
Happens to me all the time, I get so frustrated when that happens. I think to myself, why can't life be easy? Of course I then realise how unrealistic I am being and that its this way for a reason.

Alot has been going on in my head too. I have been thinking and realising that I need to change and be a better person. There are so many things I wish I wasn't. Partly because it hurts me and also because it hurts others. I want to be the person that God wants me to be. That's the journey I am on.

Another thing I am trying to do is to be honest with myself and not deny things. Its so easy to pretend that nothing is wrong and that everything is alright in life. I do not want to be like that. Sadly most of the world is like that, pretend 'its all good' and then try to get on with life. Well I refuse to be like that. I have problems, upsets, make mistakes, get mad, don't forgive when I should, lie to myself about problems, be negative instead of positive, hold onto grudges, stay in my comfort zone, don't reach out to those who need it, try to make my life perfect (not caring about others), judge others, the list goes on...
While it is good to be honest, its also very hard. I hate admitting that I have done something wrong especially to someone I have wronged that I don't know very well (eeek!)
Beside the point though...it is very much a freedom process being honest with myself and others (when I can). I am alot happier for it. Being honest is not the end for me, thats the beginning, it marks the process of change for me.

I have been sewing again finally, and found it to be very fulfilling. I enjoy the process of making an item of clothing from start to finish and then being able to proudly wear something that I made, it is definitely rewarding, alot more rewarding than buying clothes, for me anyway.
When I have finished sewing all items of clothing that I have material for I will have sewn 4 skirts, 1 pair trackpants, spring/summer dress top, polar fleece hoody/jacket. I might put photographs of these items on here when I have finished them. At the moment I have finished 3 of the skirts, the trackpants and nearly finished the top. I am in the process of making the polar fleece hoody.
I don't like following the instructions for the patterns though, they are annoyingly confusing. They say what to do and then don't explain how to do it and show a tiny diagram of how to do it that I can't really see what to do. My husband has been helping me alot with my sewing in the pattern instruction bit anyway...he can understand what to do better than I can. He can sew too, which is good. He sewed himself a polar fleece hoody, I am going to get him to make himself a pair of cord pants. I have the material, just need the pattern, zip, thread and button.

I have been enjoying exercise, I have forced myself to get into a routine. There have been days where I really did not want to go outside, but made myself do it because I knew it was good for me. I didn't regret it. I am also going to try pilates, I have a DVD, and mat. I tried it the other day and it is so hard. All the correct breathing, odd poses and coordination, none of which I am good at all at the same time. I want to learn though. It will definitely be beneficial. In fact, my husband and I would like to do it together three times a week. I think he would benefit from it too, its just a matter of motivation on his part.

That was an odd assortment of thoughts, catch-up and phrases that I can not repeat now. Its all done and has worn me out. I have enjoyed just being able to write again, to get my thoughts flowing out of my mind like a river, its great.

Ok, so I can't change the size of the font in the second half of this post, odd. I have no idea why.