Broken inspiration

I write from a silent world of retreat that cannot be expressed without brokenness...oh brokenness inside me. A long time has passed since I wrote anything, about five months. I went through a period of no inspiration, no desire to write, create, improve. Desireless, I sat on the edge of my life thinking, longing, hoping for a change in me. I want to change, but no idea how. A long time has passed since I created, felt creative and expressed myself...it hurts to create sometimes.